You probably won't be reading this here, but well, i guess i should. I think i owe you one apology. Having been friends with you for.. 8years, I know you almost inside out. I probably, dontknow how many hairs you have on your body though. But well, I totally knew how you behave around different people. You behave totally differently, when your with me and with other people. You should agree to it, because it's a fact. I'm one of the people whom you can go high with, without thinking about what I'd think about you. Because, I'd usually, go high with you too. Around other people, you'll be quiet, dao, and everything, people will probably think that your rude and everything. But, that's not you. Xruaiszens know, so do Xinhui and Dawn.

I know this coldwar thingy with you, is retarded. I dont even know the actual reason why this happened. I said, you attituded me, you said i ignored you. We both have totally different story to say. Maybe you think i've ignored you, because i didn't start talking to you in the morning. But, think, don't you think, it's weird? When most of the time, the moment i come, you'd start talking to me, like you've never talked to me before. That's the difference between me and most people. You wait for people to start the conversation, but, with me, you just talk to me. I felt that you did attitude me cause, i guess, it wasn't your usual attitude with me. You rarely talked to me in a super frustrated mood, with no apparent reason further more. So well yeah, that's weird. We started bickering on twitter, then we went on to facebook. Weird. But, we always quarrel till facebook.

I'm gonna say everything i feel now, this is quite long. Okay, but well. Yeah. We made people worry about us, by bickering on facebook. I think, we shouldn't right? We should have settled it on text or face to face. We said, we're gonna say everything we're unhappy about, to each other. yeah, i didn't, sorry. So now, i hope, i can amend for it. And there, i am typing this. You know i dont like Xinhui, i never had a good impression on her. (Sorry Xinhui), but yet, you were so close with her, and it made me pissed somehow. You were always with her, ALWAYS. You stayed at third floor without telling us, i do get pissed, but i tolerated, because i understand. I bet, you wouldn't like me being demanding, always throwing my temper as and when i like. Don't you? So I relax, I gave in, I let you be. But somethings, things do get out of hand. I will get tired too. I will get extremely pissed till i can't take it anymore. I know she's getting along with us, i should change my impression of her, certainly i will. Because after this thingy, i realize, she's actually a very nice person. I can see. I hope, this thing will end here. I will change my impression of her..

Sorry Xinhui, Sorry Vannessa.

Sorry everyone ..

CHARELCHONGGG .

Heylo , sorry for not being active , I'm back to my lazy mood to post yknow . Hehehe . Got back results. Not satisfied at all lor , dk whether to sad or happy also . :/ , tomorrow going Genting already , so excited , but sad also :P. Can't see bi. ._______________. Can't online either. ): . Recently mood super bad only, idontknow what's wrong with me, those moodswings, those cryings, those attitudes, those screaming and shouting, those.. hyperness. You see, it's complicated. I totally detest it la. Annoying much. Argh, recently just went crazy. I dont feel important kind of feeling yknow? Hahahah.

Bi , I'm sorry for always being sensitive ><. I will try not to be anymore, try squeeze out time, try to not be sad anymore.. (:

Todays Maths trail, super boring. Dk what they talking about, go the stupid Bukit Chandu, freaking boring , ahhahaha. Give us one chocolate so not nice only, then ask us do retarded things, leaving me there, waiting for answers. Pro right me. AHAHAHAHHA . My group all wait answer one, sadly, not same group as Bi, x: . hehehehehe , I feel like sleeping now, but i cant, i wanna talk to bi , hahahaha. Okay, i wanna go busy alr, byebye./

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Exams finally over? I loikeeee , now can enjoy alot already . HAHAHA . I love beast yknow. Omgggggggg , hheheeeeee . I'm so bored , should i buy B2ST's album? I wanna go their FM, okay. HAHHAHAHAH . Pupu outing soon, overseas, alotalot of things . HAHAHAHAH . okay whatever. Im bored , i miss bi . Okay whtever. Monday! Okay, bye! HAHHAA.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii , it's third month today. Iloveyou dear. HAHHAHA, okay, whatever. Whatever i wanna say to him it's all in the text i send him. LALALAL, okay, im going to bed now. I'm tired. )): , okay. bye! :D

Had fun today, i think it's considered using comp on sly, but timing just right, i like! Today, cooked baked rice, nice but abit fail, cause forget marinate chicken. HAHA, and mushroom soup not enough. But it's still nice. So many things happened lately, things which made me cry and cry and cry. I hate this week. To be exact, i think i hate april. Too many things happened already, make me stress. Keep crycrycry only. -.-. I miss him, like so much only. Okay, whatever, idontwant update alr, will update after exam. 9 days more dearrr. ((((((:

Iloveyouuuu. ((:

9th's.

No one knows, dear. Only I do. I know how well you are treating me, I know how much you adored me, I know how much and how well you protected me, trying to keep me happy, and not cry and cry and cry.. I know dear. Not that I dont. Perhaps, i just don't express it much. But i really do appreciate those things. Times w you, were those that i DONTWANT to forget.. I know well, being with you, my family are disappointed w me. Cause this would be the second time, i broke my promise to them about not having a boyf. But, it's okay. I've grown, but they don't trust me, dont think that i'm sensible enough, they dont.. I told them, " You guys never understand, you guys just dont feel that i've done enough. " She told me not to give her excuses, no point argueing. Maybe i really didn't do enough to make them trust me, I will try. For you. To be with you, without having to sneak around.. I really do cherish this relationship. I will study hard, stop spending too much time out there.

Dear, let us, or not, me alone, work extremely hard to make this relationship work, i know things weren't gonna go very well for us.. There are gonna be obstacles, every relationship will have their ups and downs. I wanna prove to them, you are trustworthy, to let me depend on you, to make me feel safe.. Will you? Dear, I'm sorry this is happening, i'm sorry.. I didnt expect things to turn out this way either, maybe not this early. I just need you, to be by my side, I need nothing else during this time.. I'm really sorry this is happening. One day, if i'm really left with no choice, but i have to leave you, please do know, i still love you. I hope that won't happen.. Dear.. Iloveyousomuch, veryveryverymuch..

Thanks for supporting me throughout..

09022011'1945 isn't a mistake, nor a regret.

It was my decision. Iloveyou..

I'm so bored right now, gonna start my homework soonsoonsoon. I'm eating mee goreng now, been long since i last ate it. (: . I miss him so badly. That ass. I can't believe i cried when he said he gtg. -.-. It's like didn't talk for.. 2days? Than chatted for like maybe 5 mins, than he tell me he going out!! Argh. Okay, whatever, i'm listening to dream high songs. Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I'm so damn bored. ASK HIM FASTER COME BACK!! HAIYO. Okay, whatever. Bye people. Iloveyouuuu.

9th's,