No one knows, dear. Only I do. I know how well you are treating me, I know how much you adored me, I know how much and how well you protected me, trying to keep me happy, and not cry and cry and cry.. I know dear. Not that I dont. Perhaps, i just don't express it much. But i really do appreciate those things. Times w you, were those that i DONTWANT to forget.. I know well, being with you, my family are disappointed w me. Cause this would be the second time, i broke my promise to them about not having a boyf. But, it's okay. I've grown, but they don't trust me, dont think that i'm sensible enough, they dont.. I told them, " You guys never understand, you guys just dont feel that i've done enough. " She told me not to give her excuses, no point argueing. Maybe i really didn't do enough to make them trust me, I will try. For you. To be with you, without having to sneak around.. I really do cherish this relationship. I will study hard, stop spending too much time out there.

Dear, let us, or not, me alone, work extremely hard to make this relationship work, i know things weren't gonna go very well for us.. There are gonna be obstacles, every relationship will have their ups and downs. I wanna prove to them, you are trustworthy, to let me depend on you, to make me feel safe.. Will you? Dear, I'm sorry this is happening, i'm sorry.. I didnt expect things to turn out this way either, maybe not this early. I just need you, to be by my side, I need nothing else during this time.. I'm really sorry this is happening. One day, if i'm really left with no choice, but i have to leave you, please do know, i still love you. I hope that won't happen.. Dear.. Iloveyousomuch, veryveryverymuch..

Thanks for supporting me throughout..

09022011'1945 isn't a mistake, nor a regret.

It was my decision. Iloveyou..